Sorry for all the ambiguous posts. I really don't think I knew what was going on over the past few weeks. BUt I am slowly and surely coming back to reality except for about the first four hours after I wake up.... those are still pretty weird. Any way, I havn't talked to my dad for about 2 weeks and he called today and left me a message. I tensed up right then and there and started to feel my self freak out again, Luckily I was at Maren's so I didn't have time to dwell on it-- for heavns sakes I had scrap booking pages to look at. all and all life is looking up and I am exploring what it feels like to be sane.... I am not going to spell check this... so sorry.